Over the past few week I have been in a funk. I would be energetic one moment and then crash and burn and end up in bed a few minutes later. Have you ever felt like that? I know I have before and it scared the bejeebers out of me this time. I know all the signs of depression and thought I would be able to spot it, but I was not prepared for how fast it came on this time. 1 week I am cooking, cleaning and quilting and the next I am spending 4 - 6 hours in bed every afternoon. I also went back to therapy and the first thing my therapist said was that I needed to go see my Psychiatrist (whom I had just seen 3 weeks earlier and things were fine then). I filed that away for a future thing to do, after all I was doing 'talk' therapy again so things were bound to get better.
Fast forward to Wednesday. My wonderful Husband called me to remind me of my appointment and found me crying on the other end of the phone. I was so tired, there was no way I could drive myself the 3 miles to my therapist appointment. That's when I realized I needed more help. Hubs had a light day at work so he was able to come home to bring me to the appointment, meanwhile I called my doctor in tears and they had an opening later that day (did I mention I love love love my doctor?). So I went to see my therapist who was very glad that I made the doctors appointment and then we went to the doctors office.
At first we had thought that my funk was just part of the natural grieving process (my Mother-in-law passed away on June 28th), but this felt eerily familiar and not in a good way. I am very lucky that I have a doctor who listens to me and wants to keep me out of the hospital this time. So we came up with a plan of action starting with increasing the dosage of one of the meds I take. I am starting to feel a little less depressed, although I feel sick from the higher dosage, but that should go away after a while.
Why am I telling you this? It's a reminder that you need to know the signs of depression and make sure those around you are educated too. And when you start to feel a change get help immediately. Medicines stop working sometimes and its important to know how to handle this. I suggest that everyone have a plan to handle this if it does happen to you. The other important thing is to have a good relationship with your doctor, it's a partnership that you are both in to get you better.
I know you all know this, but its a good thing to hear again.